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Goodie goodie :)02:56 Jul 31 2008
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I've been on dsl for a while now and it was always fast enough for me but recently my nephew got me into an online game (fighting monsters of course) and I quickly discovered it just wasn't fast enough for gaming. So I upgraded to amost 4 times faster. Hooked it up tonight and shazam it sure flies. lol Even VR loads up so much faster it's amazing. I'm also kicking myself for not doing this much sooner. lol
A year of heaven and hell15:19 Jul 27 2008
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Yesterday, marked 1 year since I had my thyroid surgery and got the wonderful news that it wasn't cancer. After months of being told it was I had been given a miracle of sorts to me and my family/friends at least. I had such high hopes that it was a good omen for me but I now know that it was the sweet before the real pain was to begin.
I"ve lost my Mother and with her death one of my brothers went on an emotional wack trip and I've not seen nor heard from him since. We had been close prior to this so it does hurt but I have to allow him to feel as he does, right? But my infant neice that he's the father of and of whom I loved very much has been forbidden to see us too. Both my sister and I are heartsore over this absence. She had her 1st birthday last week and there was no contact allowed still. Out of all the kids in the family Abbie was the only pretty little red headed girl born with my Mom's hair color. It was such a joy to her when that finally happened. Now it's such a pain when I look at the few pictures I have of the baby. She's going to be walking soon if not already and I'm missing so much of her life.
I can only hope that someday he get's over himself and allows his wife and child to know the rest of her family, living right in the same small town.
I think I'd be less hurt if my sister or I actually did something to upset him but instead he fussed with our eldest brother (they always do) but this time it was more convenient for him to lump the rest of us in his anger too.
6 weeks after my Mom died, her sister closest in age suddenly died too after surgery. Mom had 15 brothers and sisters and just the 3rd of them to have passed with one dying as a child. Now 4 of them are suddenly gone and our huge extended family are realizing that we are facing many more of these losses and it's hard to deal with right now.
Add into this mix of grief the possible medical problems for my small nephew which while not life threatening are going to be life changing are an emotional roller-coaster.
So while this year began on a bang it's ended on my whimpers for mercy. I can only thank my friends, VW39 and Elemental, in real life and my other friends here on VR that have saved my sanity more times than I can count. LadyChordewa with her wonderful phone calls and good advice, the wonderful members of my house who are always there with a "virtual" glass of booze and some laughter, and too many others to even name. With their journals they have taken my mind from dark places into joy and reminders of others plights. Thanks to Stabb, KCRC, Meeper, Artemka, CountessMoon, Images, Redqueen, Sevenn and Sahahria and the many others that I catch on the fly. Thank you all so much for saving this woman's sanity.
*okay vw39, I'm not really sane but close enough for rats*
A long time gone00:56 Jul 25 2008
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Seems forever since I wrote anything in here and even now I'm not sure where I'm going with this entry. I'm still spending time every day on VR but I've been in lurking and mostly just playing in my house and reading my favorite journals a bit.
The kids are really draining me right now which is abnormal so I'm not sure if it's me or them getting all wired up about school starting back up. I mean for the last 3 days I've broke them apart over a dozen times just fighting over who sits on the couch and who sits in the chair. I finally broke today and put them both on the couch, dared them to get up and said if they didn't quit I'd make them sit in the floor. Now in this one I admit I blame my 11year old neice a lot more than her 3 year old brother who thinks she's playing a game with him until the screaming starts. I should have invested money in Advil is all I can say!
Got to go into the city tomorrow for a doctor apt and won't be home until late since we're going to take advantage of the trip to do some school shopping for the kids. Gas too high to make another trip just for that when we're have to be there anyway. The bad part of it is I just got a late notice of a retirement party tomorrow evening for 3 guys I worked with for many years 2 sergeants and a detective. One of the sergeants was the dest sgt while I was the Dispatch Supervisor and we got to work a lot closer than I had with any of the others. I'm really bummed about missing the party since his cancer has come back and he may not be here all that much longer. (*god I hope I'm wrong* but the reports are not good)
I've sent my well wishes via another friend who will be there and that's the best I can do, I reckon. I'm sure I'll see two of them here locally as I run into them here in town often.
So very tired and sore but happy04:05 Jul 07 2008
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Moved furniture today, 3 large dressers, 2 tall chests of drawers 2 beds with mattress' and box springs, 2 night stands, 2 recliners, a loveseat couple of odd small tables and a deep freeze. Just my sister and I did it all and now that I have it cleaned back up and the beds remade I'm really pleased to have gotten it all moved but so very tired and sore all over. lol
If any of you ever wonder if those little slider discs work for moving heavy stuff - Oh Yes!!!!
I bought 2 sets a large set of 4 and a smaller set of 4 (the larger is the one's you'll use the most) but they were easy to use and worked wonderfully. Tilt the piece and slide them under the edge. It helps to have a second person to keep it still while you slide them under the other side because it'll move that easy. We put the filled freezer on the 4 large ones and then one of us was able to push it into the storage room which got it out of my dining room (where I hated it).
But now that the heavy work is done I can start figuring out which room I'll paint what color since I want a bit of as mix through the house. I also hooked up my old pc for my neice to be able to play games on and tomorrow I'll get the playstation hooked back up too. Ogre battle here I come. :)
But for now I'm really ready for bed and a nice pain pill. Tomorrow is laundry and going through a pile of stuff to sort for goodwill or garbage. It seems the more junk I get cleared out and it feeling open, the more I want it to do so. Goodnight all :)
Isn't if funny...13:11 Jul 03 2008
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I've just passed my second year here on vr and while it's changed quite a lot so have I so I guess that's only fair. Honestly much of the reason I joined has been eliminated but I've slowly replaced it with other pursuits and of course many good friends to talk with about everything under the sun and moon.
The forum that I enjoyed a lot when I was a few months into my 1st year is no longer that interesting for me. Which is more my fault that vr's since I never created more than 2 or 3 threads in my 2 years total. I find it hard to believe that the weird things I find interesting would be interesting to others. lol
I very much enjoyed the competition involved in earning favor, hangman being awesome and I was just getting into the hang of 5x5x5, when thanks to jerks it was lost.
I still enjoy meeting the occasional new member and becoming acquaintances or even friends but since I've been in a weird mood the last few months I've not even rated new members since Feb this year. I know I have to get back to it but somehow find being nice about nothing profiles very hard to do and since I hate being mean right off the bat. well you see my problem...
Overall I think it's been a wonderful 2 years and have no intention of leaving but I have cut back on the hours I spend here. Much of that though is due to Mom's death and the fact that I no longer have to sit so many hours up with her, where all I had to do was play on the laptop and tend her. Now I'm always doing something that keeps me from sitting down for long. I guess that's just life but I do miss out on a lot of fun here. I never seem to know who's into shit anymore. lol
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COMMENTS
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LadyChordewa
03:13 Jul 31 2008
LordVlkodlak
04:03 Jul 31 2008
temporary2
04:44 Jul 31 2008
I know it well. It is the only way to fly. :)
KCRC
15:13 Jul 31 2008
Now you're hooked on SPEED!
Nightgame
21:12 Jul 31 2008
Oh I am I am and it's such a fun addiction lol